Safe Journeys to my Boyfriend

Mars is on the road, his loving presence exchanged for a stick of butter and 3/4 of a bottle of Merlot. He is not in the back of a small red car winging his way back to Los Angeles. I may or may not get to see him at Folsom... and after that, probably not until January/February when I do my Las Vegas/Phoenix/LA tour.

I learn new things about myself all the time when I am around him. That I can tolerate banality and enlightened science just so much before I want to scream "Fuck you, Magic is real!" That I love the shape of uncut cocks which being an American is hard since most folks are forcibly circumsized at birth (something Furry bemoans regularly and for which we have discussed that our children will likely not be circumsized). That love is a curious beast that can take a lot of burden. That it is hard for me when I explode and no one catches me. That I don't deal well with avoidiance tactics. That I am a hypocrite. That I can be a man and be loved by a man and life can be good without removing my breasts. That I can be surprised with the strange kindnesses of taking dares. That I love fucking men up the ass (okay, I really knew that, but it's nice to be reminded). That I will never understand extended sloth. That love is someone putting up with "does this look good on me" for the fifth time in one day. That I am loved.

So he pisses me off. So he irritates my sense of self-empowerment. So he's still a teenage boy with the lungs of a karaoke god (oh pooh, he didn't sing to me this trip)... so what. So we walk differnt lifestyles, and what I want out of LIFE he can't give (I want a house, a child, a future as a famous artist, far off journeys to distant places, a dog, and happily ever afters)- but he gives me the moment, and reminds me of the value of spontanaity, cherishing the cheap (I how I loves me my Del Taco and free trips to the beach), the joy of ALIAS with those who get it, laughing at myself, and remembering to smile in the toughest of times. He gives me so much- and I am grateful.

Thank you Mars- safe journeys my love.