Crazy berlin daze

I arrived here on Thursday morning, came back to Zamil and maliZ's place in the heart of West Berlin, and instead of passing out, T, my bondage performance partner for this week came over and I did a run through of the friday show. Then, the four of us went out walking in West Berlin center, stopped past a few fetish shops, and I ate my first currywurst. Then, back at the flat, Zamil tied me up in a few different poses while maliZ took pictures, which was fun, and they laughed at me when I passed out afterwards saying "oh no, I'm fine, I'll just sit here and... zzzzzzzzz"Friday I slept in, and then we headed off Anna & Barney's apartment for dinner. Topless women served me thick beef and turnip stew from giant bowls while pictures of women covered in pasta or tied up serving sushi hung on the walls. I walked into some absurd yet deeply beautiful food fetishist's fantasy, where all the guests were beautiful, all the men ate well, all the women were topless in see-thru dresses and 5 inch heels, and everyone smoked cigarettes after eating over-priced appetizers. People smoke everywhere here in the fetish scene, I swear. Why did we stop by Anna & Barney's? It was the opening night for their art show, and Zamil had done the rope bondage for 2 photo shoots featured in the show. It was a tightly packed gallery space in East Berlin, with huge canvas-printed photographs of women pouring honey on each other, or with octopus tentacles coming out of them, or wine being put inside them as they were hanging mid-air... lots of food themes everywhere. Consumption as desire. At the art opening topless women served spagetti to men who looked at photos of women with spagetti on their asses.Then off to DarkSide Club for my show (by way of Henri's Bar for a drink in a dungeon bar, tiny but good atmosphere). T and I were fucking fan-tastic, and hyper-sensual. Afterwards, he and I practically jumped each other back stage. Crazy crazy... it's funny to me that we didn't actually, hell, days later when we've been doing bondage or whatever every day, we still haven't- damn I'm growing up or something. Who knows. I love tease and rope partners though. After T and I's show, Zamil introduced me to a cute little blonde 18 year old girl who had never been tied up and was super-shy- I put her in a few different poses and she and I flirted a lot, it was very nice. But the very cool thing was watching Zamil & maliZ play next to us, and afterwards, watching Master Hagan and his partner do the hottest scene I could ever imagine involving a woman wearing clogs. She wore only a burlap sack for a dress, clogs, and had a burlap sack tied over her head as he did the most vile things to her involving suspension bondage, heavy whips, and a dildo that was very very large. So very hot, but M, the cute blonde girl, was scared... we had to all consore her (insert cuddles). The crew at Darkside were all great, and so were the people I interacted with. The club was decadent yet tasteful, lots of play space... really good energy.Saturday, T, Master Costello, Zamil, maliZ and I all had coffee to discuss our shoot. That night, the 3 of us headed to 2nd Face Club, an amazing swingers club turned BDSM private play space- but the rules drove us crazy! No sex in this room, only that room. No wax in this room, only that room. No this or that- and there were no signs anywhere, and we kept doing the wrong things in the wrong places- so annoying. But our shows the 3 of us did were very hot. First scene Zamil suspensed me in the air and waxed and beat me while maliZ crawled around on the floor in a latex cat costume and I tried to catch her like a feral wolf (in a tight corset) caught by a hunter. Second scene I tied up maliZ in green rope while all 3 of us wore latex (actually, I wore my imp_of_satan catsuit), and then Zamil and I teased her a lot, made her eat blindfolded, were very sensual. Third scene Zamil and I tag-team tied maliZ in the leather bondage room, rope flying everywhere, until she was a "very pretty wreck" tied to a wall, gagged, blindfolded, layers of color and black rope... a very pretty wreck indeed. Those two are so hot, it's hard to be in a room with them.One of the best things about this trip has been just *talking* with them, you know? Being honest and present and yes.After 2nd face, Zamil and I dropped maliZ at home and headed to KitKat Club, a techno dance place that has been open for 12 years. That may not sound exciting, but put 1000 sweaty people in one huge club, loud music, fags fucking in the corners, sweaty het couples doing it on the dance floor, dancing everywhere, people in techno or fetish wear or club kid clothes... I could not tell who the muscle fags were vs. the muscle straight men. Women flirted, men flirted, it was seedy and raunchy and just a little bit wrong. Pretty people everywhere, and women in angel and demon costumes dancing on swinging stages that hung from the ceiling, while tattood women beath tattood men above the DJ booth. I didn't dance much as my knee hurt, but I met some great people, including one of the girls from FuckForForest, the eco-porn company that I've loved for 2 years. Networked, flirted, and watched some hot gay boy fucking while I drank gatorade and wore head to toe PVC and a tight corset with big bug shoes... yup, fun indeed.Sunday, we all slept, ate, talked, and I worked on editing my book.Today I caught the train back to Dakside club to shoot with Master Costello, with Princess Michelle and T bottoming for me... well, sort of. Basically, in my head, I call this shoot the Bridgett is a Pig shoot. I am very very happy with scenes 1 and 3 we sid scene 2 is pretty, very pretty, but slow and quiet. Scene 1 I tied up T, hung him from the ceiling, cut off his clothes, waxed his body, made him fight to kiss me, used a knife on him, and in general fucked him up and was very sensual about it. Scene 2 I did ornate bondage on him and Princess Michelle and then had her hand me ropes as I hung him from the wall of a stable, did cbt, breath play, and caned him as he said "No" a lot and I threatened to cut of his cock. Scene 3 I tied a dildo to T's face, did rope bra and panty on Michelle, then forced T to fuck me with his head dildo while I ordered Michelle to cane my breasts... the finished pose was me all but being fisted while being caned more while kissing and sucking tits with Michelle as I screamed and came on a big leather and latex bed surrounded by candles. Master Costello said I sound like a wild animal... I think so. Yeah, I am a big old pig. I also got interviewed between segments...One question I was asked was "how can you read your partner so well, you have only known T for a few days, yes?" And my final answer took a long time to come up with. Part of it is reading the body- the look in the eyes, the beat of the ahrd, the swell of the cock, the tone of voice- but in all honesty most of my understanding of what to do comes in the moment, in listening to my heart, my gut, my instincts... and being honest with myself and with my partners.That was not my initial answer, because the truth is that I am very bad at telling what people want, and I spend too much time negotiating, and it still feels strange. My best scenes come when I let my mind blank out and I listed to what the Divine tells me is true. To me it is part about listing to my heart and gut, but oftentimes my heart and gut are wrong. But when I listen to the universe, just shu the fuck up and hear what the universe is telling me... it all goes well overall. I sounded crazy though talking about God and magic on a BDSM film I thought though, so I rewound it a bit... but i did keep my message of intent clear- if more people were happy, fewer people would go to war. good sex, good company, good life... makes people more easy going and could bring peace on earth. Peace one cock one cunt at a time.Princess Michelle liked my screams so much, I have a shoot tomorrow night with German Dungeon which should be fun :)Cake. Did I mention they have this cool stuff here with puddinag and cake in one tasty treat?After the shoot today I took myself for a walk, and found a chinese place to eat dumplings and read my book.So yeah, it's been crazy, but good, so far... and the bruises are starting to turn purple, bit by bit.So tired, I think I'll crash soon. Tomorrow- Museum tourist stuff and being beaten while tied up :)