I love Vanilla Chai and long talks

Okay, so afternoon bobadge didn't happen...BUT, the class went well. Sort of. Club Viramor, hell, everything up here, is freezing. I mean damn cold. We got to the club at 7:45, and it was cold when we taught the class. It was supposed to have hands-on elements, but hell, everyone just sat around and watched except Lolita who was a total star tying AJ up (who I somehow remembered from NLA's LiL 2000, whoa). Suze and I rocked, and flew through LOTS of positions in a short period of time. Assymetrical bondage is one of my "brain dump" classes, where I say - "here, these are cool ideas, get inspired!" It's kind of like iron chef- take an element, make it crazy. I think I tied her in 15-20 or so poses in an hour and a bit, including 3 or 4 suspensions. Crazy. We were cold though. Lolita was smark- AJ was tied up in a Leather coat.Afterwards a group of us headed over to Dunkin' Donuts. I love Vanilla Chai and bagels. I do. Aye Provide (who is 200% more fabulous in person than she is over email, and her photos on her site SO do not do her justice, my gods she's yummy), Maya (whose house I crashed at after shooting with Richard Cordage), Maggie and her hubby, Lolita and AJ, 2 people I didn't know, and a new guy who had tons of questions. We taked for hours. It rocked. It was so good to just babble and connect with people.My kink- connection. I am totally about connection. Sensations are nice, yummy even, but I want, even if just for 5 seconds, to really get into peoples heads, hearts, and/or souls and exist fully. I got a little bit of that time tonight with folks. Amazing tales of family, roles, loves, lives. Sharing why I care about some people. Living. Being. This is the stuff that life is made of... and tonight, at Dunkin' Donuts... I lived. Thank you.I am also grateful when people help me find ways to understand me. The newest one:"I know it's been a good relationship if I can look back on it and say- I am a better person because of you."I said it out of the blue talking about why I don't hate Master Marcus. It was a good way for me to verbalize how I am able to stay optimistic about love and life. And why I like being friends with Exes. Because there are relatively few people who I can't look back on and say that about. Even people who used and abused me. I can honestly say, you know what, I am a better person because of having known them. It makes me feel happy to have known them, even if bad things happened, even if we hurt one another. It's empowering.It also made me flash back to the great dinner eve I got to have at BR with FemCar, Phantom, Furry,Doggie and Doggie's silent partner. After getting lost, we found a random food place and had what I love- god drinks, good food, good company, good conversation. Just 2 hours before I'd dumped 2- 2liter bottles of old cold uriine on FemCar- and here we were eating steak and discussing love, spirituality, and children. Life is truly amazing. Evenif both of us still smelled like kitty litter.Wen I grow up- I want a house that people want to stop by to have long chats over good food, good beverages, and in general, connect with one another at. I want to sit up discussing, art, philosophy, love, divinity, beauty, sexuality, and sit with my child and let them learn how to live and love surrounded by peers of mine who will show them the facets of the world through their eyes. If I can do that, I will feel truly blessed.Okay, off to bed with me. 2 classes and a party to attend tomorrow in Albany, NY. I've missed Berzerko. I saw him at BR, but we didn't get us time. I hope we do.